Today marks the end of the Thought of the Day. One year ago today, I started to post these on my blog post. These “Thought of the Day” statements were created for my sister, Jennifer, to attempt to temporarily get her mind off of her daily struggle with stage four melanoma; I would call and leave them on her answering machine or text them to her. I hope you have enjoyed reading these thoughts as I have felt these were God inspired and it was my privilege to be the presenter of God’s “thought provokers”. Reflected below is a final tribute I wrote for my sister, Jennifer…may God richly bless your lives and may you truly appreciate every heartbeat of life…
Jennifer’s Ashes
Gone are the happy go lucky days
Where days went on forever and forever we played,
When I had your back and you had mine
We were just siblings, but how our lives intertwined.
And now I’m just standing here, burying Jennifer’s ashes
Wishing I could somehow turn back time,
Back to when you were healthy and happy
Back to the days when laughter chimed.
You taught me to drive and I pulled you through hell
From the torture of Algebra, we worked through it well,
I must confess, I teased you too much
But you got me back with your screams and your pouts.
And now I’m just standing here, burying Jennifer’s ashes
Wishing I could be anywhere else,
My head knows you’re gone but my heart’s in denial
Time heals all wounds but I still have an aching pulse.
We both grew up and became adults
We both had families and bills and the lot,
And even though we didn’t see each other very often
We made up for it, on the phone or in person.
And now I’m just standing here, burying Jennifer’s ashes
Hating myself for the guilt I feel,
For I’m still alive being healthy and happy
And your life is over, a life gone too soon.
Standing here on your birthday, May 23rd
Barely listening to the Pastor, his words scarcely heard,
For my mind continues to wander and I kind of worry
That this date will be forever stamped with a bittersweet memory.
And now I’m just standing here, burying Jennifer’s ashes
I’d rather be celebrating with you still alive,
You often stated that your birthdate meant time for spring planting
But none of us knew just how your words would now be implied.
I know your soul rejoices for where you reside now
Among the angels and the Son of God,
Please be patient with me big little sister
As I try to cope with placing your remains beneath the sod.
And now I’m leaving behind Jennifer’s ashes
Moving ahead with the rest of my life,
Yearning for the day when I once again get to see her
Where the heavenly realms is flooded by God’s Holy light.
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