Category Archives: Patience

Jennifer’s Ashes

Today marks the end of the Thought of the Day.  One year ago today, I started to post these on my blog post. These “Thought of the Day” statements were created for my sister, Jennifer, to attempt to temporarily get her mind off of her daily struggle with stage four melanoma; I would call and leave them on her answering machine or text them to her.  I hope you have enjoyed reading these thoughts as I have felt these were God inspired and it was my privilege to be the presenter of God’s “thought provokers”.  Reflected below is a final tribute I wrote for my sister, Jennifer…may God richly bless your lives and may you truly appreciate every heartbeat of life…

 

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Jennifer’s Ashes

Gone are the happy go lucky days

Where days went on forever and forever we played,

When I had your back and you had mine

We were just siblings, but how our lives intertwined.

 

And now I’m just standing here, burying Jennifer’s ashes

Wishing I could somehow turn back time,

Back to when you were healthy and happy

Back to the days when laughter chimed.

 

You taught me to drive and I pulled you through hell

From the torture of Algebra, we worked through it well,

I must confess, I teased you too much

But you got me back with your screams and your pouts.

 

And now I’m just standing here, burying Jennifer’s ashes

Wishing I could be anywhere else,

My head knows you’re gone but my heart’s in denial

Time heals all wounds but I still have an aching pulse.

 

We both grew up and became adults

We both had families and bills and the lot,

And even though we didn’t see each other very often

We made up for it, on the phone or in person.

 

And now I’m just standing here, burying Jennifer’s ashes

Hating myself for the guilt I feel,

For I’m still alive being healthy and happy

And your life is over, a life gone too soon.

 

Standing here on your birthday, May 23rd

Barely listening to the Pastor, his words scarcely heard,

For my mind continues to wander and I kind of worry

That this date will be forever stamped with a bittersweet memory.

 

And now I’m just standing here, burying Jennifer’s ashes

I’d rather be celebrating with you still alive,

You often stated that your birthdate meant time for spring planting

But none of us knew just how your words would now be implied.

 

I know your soul rejoices for where you reside now

Among the angels and the Son of God,

Please be patient with me big little sister

As I try to cope with placing your remains beneath the sod.

 

And now I’m leaving behind Jennifer’s ashes

Moving ahead with the rest of my life,

Yearning for the day when I once again get to see her

Where the heavenly realms is flooded by God’s Holy light.

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Thought of the Day–4/21/18

Thought of the Day—It’s great to be on the mountain top and to look out at all the majestic views that lie before you.  But the better perspective is when you are in the valley, looking up.  From that vantage point, you can see both the grandiose size and beauty of the mountains as well as your goal, your journey ahead.  You feel so small and inadequate in your surroundings because in fact, you are.  And while it’s necessary to stop from time to time on your journey to rest and get refreshed, to adjust your course and continue on, if you look too often at where you’ve been, you will never reach your destination…so it is on the trail and in life…

Thought of the Day–4/11/18

Thought of the Day—Do you have a case of the wandering eye when it comes to other people’s lives?  Did you know that the time and energy spent on wishing you had someone else’s life could have been better spent on improving your own?  God gave you a unique set of people, geography, and circumstances to help make you who YOU should be, not someone else.  And even though there may be a few weeds to pull and perhaps a little grass seed to sow in the dry patches of life’s lawn, just remember; the only reason that grass looks greener on the other side is probably because it’s only artificial astro turf…

Thought of the Day–4/5/18

Thought of the Day—I know most of you have heard the old adage, “time heals all wounds” which is true, especially when forgiveness was applied.  Many times, what’s left is a scar that serves as a reminder of a painful but teachable experience and when put in proper perspective, can give strength to one’s character.  But when we are in the process of healing, we need to be on the lookout for what I call scab pickers; those that attempt to reopen that same painful wound by throwing out reminders of the hurting incident and therefore, keep you from healing.  Satan is a pro at doing this; so are some “so called” friends or family…don’t be deceived by their tactics but always keep these “antagonistic monsters” at arm’s length and pray for peace, healing…and perhaps selective memory loss?

Thought of the Day–3/28/18

Thought of the Day—Why is it that we rush to immunize our children from diseases but leave them completely exposed to the negative influences of this world.  We, as adults, are the caretakers and gatekeepers of these young minds and we WILL be held accountable for corrupting them…